Am I really courageous? Am I faking it?

My story:

I have never been brave, I thought that being brave was just not for me… I can’t say that I was not courageous and then something happened that made me change, because that’s sadly not my life. I feel like I will always have impostor syndrome, as I never think that I am good enough or that I do enough.

However, there was something that made me think that maybe one day I would be enough, and that was when I left Spain. I have always loved learning new languages and I knew that I wanted to leave my country – not because I didn’t like it, but because I wanted to have new experiences of my own.

Last year I finally got the courage to move to Hamburg, an incredible city in Germany. I went there knowing just the basics of German and completely alone. I was terrified… But I got the strength to do it and I am really happy I did it. Now I am working at a Hotel that I love, I can speak german quite well and I have met amazing people here.

What is then the problem? That even then, I still think to myself that this is just something that everyone could do, and sometimes I just don’t know what I am doing here and I feel that I don’t belong. That even if I try my hardest I will never do be.

I think that this impostor syndrome is my own shadow and I know that I will overcome it, as well as I know that every day I gain a little more self-confidence. I know that I don’t show my courage being all emotionally explosive but I consider the rational expression to have a greater effect. And as Barýshnikov stated: “I don’t try to do better than anyone else. I only try to do it better than myself the day before”, and in my case, I hope that one day that will be enough.

My opinion about this subject:

I really enjoyed doing this last assignment, as it made me think of everything that I always want to do but then I don’t think that I am courageous enough to do. I realized that if I want to be a great hospitality expert I need to overcome that fear and start thinking that I am enough.